I realised something tonight. I'm tired of this sickening lifestyle, the same repeated events over and over, I hate it. I have a chance to change it for the better this Wednesday, if that doesn't work I might have to do something drastic... School also ends an hour later for this week, everything is against me... I'm supposed to be there at 4 dammit...

If Wednesday doesn't work out, maybe losing everything might make me appreciate things better... What the heck am I thinking of now? haha~~ I'm getting too selfish huh?

Btw this was written at 1.30 am, haha~~~
You know I'm usually not up late because I want to...
I would have already broken down were I more immature , even now my heart still aches...
I don't have any motivation anymore, neither for deviations nor studies... And I still have my mask on in school...